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So today I found myself surrounded by broken things...Today was the day that all of the changes that have been taking place over the last few months came to a head. I have decided that I am very overwhelmed by it all. I have spent a lot of time in prayer asking for God's wisdom, direction, and for him to bring healing or do a miracle in my life concerning my health and the desire to start a family, daily asking for His guidance and taking steps in the direction that I feel that He is leading. All this to say that I am more unsure now than I was before. I am not sure what He is asking me to do at all, I had faith that only God could bring change into my life, I prayed and claimed things in His name, now standing empty handed I question what it is that He is looking for me to do. I plead, I cry, I get angry, I remain faithful, I allow others into my issues so that God can have the glory when it all works out, I have proclaimed my faith with the situations when it was truly there and when I was unsure, so now what Lord? Now what?

What is it that You want from me? How should you have me pray now? What changes are You bringing? What steps are you planning for me? WHAT?

I know that God is the healer and that nothing is too big or too small for Him I have faith that only HE can change the circumstances in my life, that I have faith for.....but I can not understand why that faith has thus far left me empty handed and heart broken....

I will wait for His direction, and continue to pray with all that I am for the desires of my heart, and no matter what God will have the glory in this!

So God......I am waiting!

What I Have Been Up To and Reviews

I have decided that since I have lots of time on my hands these days I should really be able to share what I am doing with those of you who do not have time to do things. So I am going to give short versions of movies and books that I am reading and also update everyone on things that happen in my days so that you can love vicariously through my blog.

OK so I read Marley & Me, it was good. Not a must read, but an entertaining read. Now I can not wait to see the movie. I like to compare the story lines to see what important parts of the movie people left out. It really is fun you should try it! Anyway, it is a story of a couple that gets a new puppy and the puppy is a handful. They are in love with each other and the puppy and as the family starts to grow and go through things the dog is still a big part of the family and it does a really great job of expressing what it is like to have a dog as a part of the family, not just a pet. If you have ever been attached to a dog, or had a good faithful dog in your life you will identify with the writer as he explains what goes on during the dogs life.

I remembered my dog Sam, she was great. It made me smile, it made some people cry. Not me but some! I give it 4 sticks!

I watched Annie, the 1982 version, again after a long time. I got it for $3.00 at Target. It was as good as I remember it being when I was a kid. I think that it will always bring back good memories for me and that it will be on my favorite list forever. I looked up all the actors on IMDB and none of the kids in that movie went on to do anything else, so if you were curious don't bother looking. i give this 5 Sticks

I recommend everyone getting the game THINGS, or joining me at my house to play it because it is one of the funniest games ever. This also gets 5 Sticks

Ummm....well I had a great Christmas, and a great New year, We went to Knotts to celebrate 2009 and it was foggy, I like to refer to the fog as puff, and that is just what I did all night, in a British accent. The whole trip was a 4 sticker! would have been a 5 stick trip, but the fog blocked the fireworks and the park did not have a potato cheddar soup.

I am sure that I have done other things but I forget!